The drop that spilled the glass

 The drop that spilled the glass 

We fight, we fight so hard for achieve or get want we want and desire but sometimes no matter how hard we fight, we won't get it, just because call it life or destiny but that is just not meant for you.

The thing is that the road until we finally get that we shouldn't keep trying is the hardest time. We fall and get up over and over again, ignoring everyone around trying to tell us that it's enough. I guess only deep inside of us something tell you when you're done trying. 

They say we don't kick the habit till you hit rock bottom. Till one day you wake up with a new propose, willing to let go of whatever you were chasing. Trying and not giving up is okay but we all know when to stop and the more you try to convince yourself to keep trying the more you keep hurting yourself. 

I read that when you have to run after something, it means it doesn't want be caught. Now, I get it and even though I don't regret anything about my past, I wished I had get it before. Because I used to run after people who didn't want me in its life, I use to run after habits that weren't really my thing, I used to run trying to catch all those expectations from others in me. How I ended up? Empty, with nothing else to give, because believe there was nothing else inside of me. 

I had to get empty to realise that I have allowed everyone to take everything I was from me, giving so much love and time to people that wouldn't give a thing about me, I care way too much about people that didn't care about me, I did things that didn't make me happy just to please others, beyond others. One day without asking for it, the drop spilled the glass, I was done, I was done trying because I had ended up empty being anyone else but me, I can assure that the day I stop fighting with what never was in my hands I founded myself again. 

I found myself laughing and being plenary again, anyways it wasn't easy to leave all that taking advantage of me but I had to and let me tell you, some stuff tried to came back to my life, did I allow it? Of course not, because when you hit rock bottom there is no way back.

Don't worry if you haven't get to that point yet, as I said before no matter how many times others tell us to stop, only you would know and believe me that time arrives for all of us. We just need a tiny drop (action) that let us know that it has been enough, and then it time to change the move.