Fullness

 Fullness 

One day you wake up and realise that you wouldn't change a thing, you realise that the journey was indeed hard but that you made it through and you are strong enough to survive what ever comes. 

You realise that you weren't missing people or stuff, you were missing yourself. One day you find yourself dancing again, laughing like crazy, happy you know? 'Cause yeah life can hurt so bad once a while but I can assure that not pain nor sadness last forever.

It had happen to all of us, feeling like dying even when we are literally don't, loosing peace and hope but I'll dare to say that in order to get fullness you first get to know lack, lack of joy, hope, peace beyond others. Nevertheless one day everything what was snatched from you comes back, at times not in the same way. Let me give you an example, someone you love so much leaves, of course at first it'll hurt but eventually you'll realise that it left for reason and that empty hole in you will be replaced with either peace or love, self-love or however you want to call it. It's true, it takes time but it arrives. 

One day you don't miss what you had because you are fullness, happy enough with what you already posses, I mean material and non material stuff. Believe fullness attract more fullness, it's the moment in which you stop desiring all control and leave it to the universe.

I mean there has been a bunch of stuff in which you felt like dying, but guess what? You didn't die. You here, telling your story and able to continue writing till the end, we barely know when the end would be and even when it's true that you cannot chase fullness, it's also true that it arrives on its own.

If you are in pain, be so but it's gonna end one day or another just be brave and patient, when you're done you'll see that everything what seemed humongous looks pretty small by now.