Truth is

 Truth is 

I know now that this is how it works, you don't get to keep everyone in your life forever. And there's some people that are just meant to be a sunrise for you, a light to pull you out of the darkness. There are friends, lovers, relationships that are seasonal. 

No matter how deep of a conversation you had with that person at 2 am, no matter how much you shared your hearth, even if can still draw the lines of their smile, like the map of the too familiar road in the back of your mind. 

There almost always comes a time to move on, a time to let go. And regardless of the letting go, let him know that he will always gonna feel a little bit like home to me, no matter how temporary, it is still beautiful that I've got to call so many hearts my home. 

Because no matter how familiar you get, it comes a time when my peace is worth even more than your chaos do, the time when I choose, I choose me before everyone and anything else, I choose to be okay, happy and in peace. Those could look like a few things to gave up on such a huge love but they are actually what I need to keep breathing.

I found joy in things I have overpass while I was so busy looking at you, I forgot how much love surrounded me and I agree to the tiny bit you gave me. I forgot how happy could I become by finding the part of my self I have lost by searching for you all the time, by the uncertainty and the constant panic of you leaving. That panic is no longer with me because you already left and I'm still alive.